Almost There

[maplemood]

Whew! Sorry about my last few posts--they've been lackluster, mostly because I feel lackluster, or at least drained. Wrapping up the big bang fic is eating up all my motivation and inspiration, but I've finally cleared the minimum word count and things are starting to wind down towards an ending. Parts of this fic I love. Other parts I'm not wild over. But it's the longest thing I've written in years, and I still can't quite believe that I'm about to finish it. There's a quote--okay, calling it a "quote" is pretty strong; I think it's actually something Georgia from My Favorite Murder said--anyway, there's a line about how perfection isn't the point, but making things--even imperfect things--is. That's how I feel about this fic. Will it be perfect? Not even close. But who cares? It'll be there. 

Yeah, I'm a little emotional over this. Also really, really ready for it to be done. 

I've been making an effort to read more in order to combat the whole drained-of-any-extra-inspiration feeling. Just started Leviathan Wakes, the first book in The Expanse series. I'm up to chapter eight, and even though no single character has especially grabbed me yet, the worldbuilding's fantastic and I'm excited by the hints of deeper creepiness to come. Nonfiction-wise, I'm well into another Ann Rule book (Small Sacrifices). With both these books, I feel like I'm gulping down the main story without savoring (or even absorbing) most of the details. Oh, well. I can always reread, and at least I am reading; whenever I get deep into a fic I tend to forget to read enough. And then wonder why my all my inspiration is suddenly gone. 

(Also, Pacific Rim: Tales From Year Zero has been sitting on my desk's bookshelf since Christmas and somehow I've barely cracked the cover. This needs to change. Soon.)

Comments

[skye_writer]

Awesome that you're getting to the end of your fic! Also yay for reading! I haven't been reading as many books as I'd like this year, but I've picked up a little bit recently, so that's good.

Anyway, hope you're well! :)

[maplemood]

Yeah, reading's been kind of iffy this year. I've found some really good books, but not as many as I'd like. On the bright side, I discovered some really good comics, and I've been reading some really good nonfiction.

Thanks!! I hope you're doing well, too.

[paynesgrey]

Understood about the big bang fic. Those can be monsters. I hope you're doing well with it.

[maplemood]

They really can, thought it was also a good way of forcing myself to just get the damn thing finished.